2015
The darkest moment of my life
I never knew that tragedy would happened
The lonely brief and quietness
The laughters all surround me
The thought of me as a joke
The solo self in a crowd
The year that makes me more hurting
All just went in one pace
Everything just so blurred
It is a really hard decision
for a single person to survive
in this cruel world
alone….
what about a relationship?
what if no one in this world like you
like in other means falling in love
because they are afraid of you
or maybe afraid of them
it is not about the relationship
it is about how we overwhelmed
there is someone who will understand
someone who is always there
even with our darkest habits
who can deliver love
as much as our love to them
maybe being in a relationship
wasn’t a bad thing at all
but a complicated feeling
I wish there are someone
who can give their time
to give their attention even a second
someone who can be relayed with
or maybe someone who hates making us feel disappointed
Have you ever believe in positivity?
I never believe one, once
Until I found out
That being far from positive
Only hurting ourselves
Labilism, I gained that now
Stuck between negative and positive
Negative thoughts haunt every second
But then again, feeling always declined
Ushering away all negativity
My first wish ever since the past
I always wanted to be a nice person
It sounds full of lies and bullshits
But that is the truth
And I can never achieve it
All the assumptions that already struck
The hates that I gained
That’s the only thing that made negativity
I never said I was always right
Everyone made mistake
And maybe it really breaks my heart
If there are situation
When I am trying to be positive
And there are things that made be disappointed
I don’t know if that is a negativity
Or reality that I can ever accept